I listened to an interesting interview yesterday in the KRCL Radio Active archives* with Bart Ehrman who wrote God's Problem: How the Bible Fails to Answer Our Most Important Question, Why We Suffer.
He discussed all of the standard answers to the question and why they don't satisfy him. Because the radio program is produced in Salt Lake, I kept waiting to hear someone call in with one of the answers that I'd learned in church and that seems fairly clear in the scriptures.
Bart Ehrman asks: If God is all powerful and loving, why doesn't he prevent all this overwhelming suffering? How can the two character traits co-exist?
I think that God wants us to step up and do what we can to prevent or alleviate suffering (whether caused by mistakes or malicious choices, or natural disaster, or whatever). If we're here on earth to learn anything, it's how to serve others and lift their burdens. Love our neighbors.
So sure, we're tested in our own suffering, but if God is actually testing us by design, I believe it's primarily about what we're doing to help others, not ourselves. (And I personally need to get to work on that.)
No one ever did call in with that take on things. Maybe I'll write him a letter.
* Warning: Radio Active is pretty left of center, sometimes downright hyper progressive. The fact that it's produced here in Utah makes me smile.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Restless
For the past week or two I have had many moments of serious restlessness. My favorite diversions are no longer satisfying. I need to be engaged in something more substantial. I'm ready to be engaged in something.
I'm taking this as a good sign. For so many, many months after we closed our book store I was unable to muster up much emotional energy for any significant endeavor. In fact, the idea of engaging in anything that required any kind of commitment was emotional and overwhelming.
Because of that, I've procrastinated. A lot.
I've ignored old household projects that needed to be done and let new ones build up. I've put off getting fully involved in the details of the art exhibition I'm curating. I've put off eating healthfully and getting into shape. I've put off dentist and doctor appointments. I've put off stacks of filing in my office. I've put off getting more involved with the museum store. I've put off entering boxes and boxes of books online to get them sold. And so on and so on.
I've also had to wait and wait for other things to fall in place. It's a long process getting hired on and scheduled for classes at UVU (I started a year ago and still don't know when or what I'll be teaching this fall). It's a long process applying for and getting a job with the school district.
I am bored, bored, bored to the bones.
It's time to get things done.
I'm taking this as a good sign. For so many, many months after we closed our book store I was unable to muster up much emotional energy for any significant endeavor. In fact, the idea of engaging in anything that required any kind of commitment was emotional and overwhelming.
Because of that, I've procrastinated. A lot.
I've ignored old household projects that needed to be done and let new ones build up. I've put off getting fully involved in the details of the art exhibition I'm curating. I've put off eating healthfully and getting into shape. I've put off dentist and doctor appointments. I've put off stacks of filing in my office. I've put off getting more involved with the museum store. I've put off entering boxes and boxes of books online to get them sold. And so on and so on.
I've also had to wait and wait for other things to fall in place. It's a long process getting hired on and scheduled for classes at UVU (I started a year ago and still don't know when or what I'll be teaching this fall). It's a long process applying for and getting a job with the school district.
I am bored, bored, bored to the bones.
It's time to get things done.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Five People
Five random people who have taught me lasting lessons without even knowing it:
- The cute guy in my college skiing class (I don't even remember his name) who was on the swim team but who was a lousy, lousy skier. Everyone on the bus thought he was one of the instructors. He was a proven athlete who was confident enough to take a risk, putting himself out there to learn something he wanted to learn even if he looked funny doing it.
- My cousin Joe's wife, Tammi, who is an amazing mom. Years ago I watched her helping her kids do tricks on a trampoline, and she always made sure that they ended their turn doing something she knew they'd do successfully.
- My aunt Sigrid, who just takes care of business. I was baby sitting my younger cousins one night and when she came home, probably about midnight and probably pretty tired, she immediately set to work sewing on a button that had fallen off the coat she was wearing.
- Todd and Jonathan, two writers I worked with years ago on a documentation team at an educational software company. They spent hours passionately discussing style guide controversies, like whether or not we should use commas in a series. And I do mean hours. Technically I never earned a degree in English, but I sure feel like I have!
Friday, June 20, 2008
Our Collective Choices
I have long thought that we don't even begin to recognize how our individual choices taken collectively define our society for good or bad. Yay for this artist in his attempt to help us better understand what we do in the aggregate.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
My Micro Diary
I used to be diligent about keeping a journal, but it's been a struggle to be consistent since I got married. Roger's not personally to blame - just his presence. I used to write at night before going to sleep, but that's when I slept alone.
Anyway, I've felt bad about losing track of the details of my life (and by extension the details of Jack's childhood).
So my latest scheme is to write a paragraph a day an post it in My Micro Diary. I'm hoping that doing it online will increase my sense of accountability so I'll actually follow through!
Anyway, I've felt bad about losing track of the details of my life (and by extension the details of Jack's childhood).
So my latest scheme is to write a paragraph a day an post it in My Micro Diary. I'm hoping that doing it online will increase my sense of accountability so I'll actually follow through!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Snapshot
Time I usually go to bed: Quarter to twelve. Time I usually wake up: Quarter past eight. I have no idea why I seem to be so consistent with the quarter hours. But I sure love not having an alarm set now that Jack is out of school.
Current food jag: BLT sandwiches - the true taste of summer. Whole wheat toast, real mayonnaise, vine ripened tomatoes, crisp butter lettuce, two slices of bacon (the already cooked kind that you microwave for 20 seconds, and the package swears three slices are only 70 calories and a couple of grams of fat so it doesn't seem too sinful).
Last book I finished reading: Ambulance Girl by Jane Stern - A memoir about a woman in her fifties who suffers from depression and all sorts of phobias who becomes obsessed with becoming an EMT and actually does it!
The most important goal I really want to stick to this summer: Giving Jack a substantial job every day that will teach him something new and/or make a big difference around the house.
Favorite new blog: High Desert Home - a woman in Oregon who writes this and that about raising children, homemaking, being aware of how she moves in the world and creating a life that she loves living.
Last family party: Getting together at Roger's sister's house after hearing our nephew Eric speak at church. He just got home from a mission in Indiana.
Current favorite exercise: Biking around the neighborhood, especially with Jack and Roger. We do not have to go at little kid pace anymore. Jack is often out in front of us these days!
Plane tickets currently in my hot little hands: Roundtrip Salt Lake to Chicago for two fabulous weeks at Lake Geneva in Wisconsin.
Biggest thing hanging over my head: Trying to help my brother sell his house in Boston. He's been living in Kenya for more than two years and the market is crashing. No stress there!
What I'm going to do tonight soon after I finish writing this post: set the beach chairs out in front of the neighbor's house and watch the town fireworks (it's Art City Days here in Springville).
What I plan to do when I wake up in the morning: Read in bed until Jack wakes up.
Current food jag: BLT sandwiches - the true taste of summer. Whole wheat toast, real mayonnaise, vine ripened tomatoes, crisp butter lettuce, two slices of bacon (the already cooked kind that you microwave for 20 seconds, and the package swears three slices are only 70 calories and a couple of grams of fat so it doesn't seem too sinful).
Last book I finished reading: Ambulance Girl by Jane Stern - A memoir about a woman in her fifties who suffers from depression and all sorts of phobias who becomes obsessed with becoming an EMT and actually does it!
The most important goal I really want to stick to this summer: Giving Jack a substantial job every day that will teach him something new and/or make a big difference around the house.
Favorite new blog: High Desert Home - a woman in Oregon who writes this and that about raising children, homemaking, being aware of how she moves in the world and creating a life that she loves living.
Last family party: Getting together at Roger's sister's house after hearing our nephew Eric speak at church. He just got home from a mission in Indiana.
Current favorite exercise: Biking around the neighborhood, especially with Jack and Roger. We do not have to go at little kid pace anymore. Jack is often out in front of us these days!
Plane tickets currently in my hot little hands: Roundtrip Salt Lake to Chicago for two fabulous weeks at Lake Geneva in Wisconsin.
Biggest thing hanging over my head: Trying to help my brother sell his house in Boston. He's been living in Kenya for more than two years and the market is crashing. No stress there!
What I'm going to do tonight soon after I finish writing this post: set the beach chairs out in front of the neighbor's house and watch the town fireworks (it's Art City Days here in Springville).
What I plan to do when I wake up in the morning: Read in bed until Jack wakes up.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Trajectory
I like to think that every day could bring an unexpected twist or turn that will change the direction of something in my life. I like getting the mail, I like getting phone calls, I like running into people I known when I'm out and about. You never know what opportunities might come up.
A few months ago I had a couple of weeks in which doors seemed to be opening left and right. We'd like you to be on the library board. Okay. We'd like to you spruce up the museum store for an exhibit opening. Okay. We'd like you to think about managing the store on a long term basis. Okay. We'd like you to interview you about teaching writing classes at Utah Valley University. Okay. We'd like to you apply for a 10 hour a week job at the high school library. Okay.
Since then, I've been slowly putting all of the pieces together.
I'm now on the library board, a three-year term. I spruced up the museum store. I'm still working out the details for a longer term arrangement, but will definitely be involved through the end of the year because I need the store to support the picture book art exhibition I'm working on. I got hired on at UVU but am waiting to find out my class assignments. I applied at the school district for the library job, but am a bit worried because the posting indicated it would be a 20 hour a week job. That would be too much to juggle.
One minute I'm crazy busy, then I'm hurrying up to wait. Slowly but surely the trajectory of my life, at least for the next year, is taking shape.
A few months ago I had a couple of weeks in which doors seemed to be opening left and right. We'd like you to be on the library board. Okay. We'd like to you spruce up the museum store for an exhibit opening. Okay. We'd like you to think about managing the store on a long term basis. Okay. We'd like you to interview you about teaching writing classes at Utah Valley University. Okay. We'd like to you apply for a 10 hour a week job at the high school library. Okay.
Since then, I've been slowly putting all of the pieces together.
I'm now on the library board, a three-year term. I spruced up the museum store. I'm still working out the details for a longer term arrangement, but will definitely be involved through the end of the year because I need the store to support the picture book art exhibition I'm working on. I got hired on at UVU but am waiting to find out my class assignments. I applied at the school district for the library job, but am a bit worried because the posting indicated it would be a 20 hour a week job. That would be too much to juggle.
One minute I'm crazy busy, then I'm hurrying up to wait. Slowly but surely the trajectory of my life, at least for the next year, is taking shape.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Idol Worship
I confess. I got sucked into watching American Idol for the first time this season.
It was fun having a top two contestant from Utah, and I'd have been happy if David Archuleta won.
But honestly? Throughout the competition, I only ever rewound one song to listen to it again. A David Cook song.
Rock on!
It was fun having a top two contestant from Utah, and I'd have been happy if David Archuleta won.
But honestly? Throughout the competition, I only ever rewound one song to listen to it again. A David Cook song.
Rock on!
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Spring Break
We flew into Baltimore and spent a night at my brother-in-law Bill's house with his wife Lorraine, a 5-year old, a 3-year old, twin 1-year olds (who we met for the first time), and their big friendly dog. Their home is busy and happy!
Then we drove down to Washington, D.C. and spent a few days with good friends, Pat and Jack. Highlights included taking (my) Jack to visit the federal court where I used to work, having lunch with my cousin Julie (an honest-to-goodness lobbyist), visiting monuments after dark and taking the D.C. Duck tour. Jack especially enjoyed taking hundreds of photos at the air and space museum and the museum of natural history.
Jack was thrilled to get a $5 bill for finding a piece of hidden matzah. I won't be surprised if that's the tradition he remembers most when his Primary class studies the Old Testament at church.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Before and After
Here are some before and after photos of the Springville Museum of Art store. The after photos were taken before it was completely done, but they show the transformation. In less than three weeks and with a next-to-nothing budget, we were ready for the opening of the Wayne Thiebaud exhibition last Saturday. Phew!
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After:



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After:
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Zero to 60
A few weeks ago, my life shifted into seriously high gear. Not permanently, but all of a sudden I've got a lot of balls in the air at once.
For example, at the moment I'm writing this at the Springville High School library circulation desk, where I have been substituting for the last few days. Oops, hang on. I have to go help a student find books about ancient Roman baths.
I'm back!
Besides substituting at the high school several times this month, I've been busy at Jack's school helping out in the classroom, writing the PTA newsletter and creating door decorations for teacher appreciation week.
I've been busy at the Springville City Library as a newly appointed member of the library board, which will be a big adventure. The first hour of my first board meeting was pretty intense as we listened to a couple contest several books in the young adult section. First amendment issues right out of the gate!
I've been busy helping out with publicity for the 42nd Annual Art Ball, which is held every year at the Springville Museum of Art to help celebrate the opening of the Spring Salon exhibit, a juried show for contemporary Utah artists. The Art Ball will be held on May 3. Light buffet and big band dancing. Contact me if you want to buy tickets (I think I might have a quota to sell).
I've also been getting back to pulling together the art exhibit I'm working on as a guest curator for the museum--original illustrations from children's books. I met with the Statewide Art Partnership committee to talk about the exhibit and get their creative juices flowing with ideas about how to get schools involved. Their enthusiasm was very encouraging. The exhibit is scheduled from mid-September to the end of December.
I've also been at the museum nearly every day for the past two weeks working on transforming the store for the opening of the Wayne Thiebaud exhibit. I've been painting walls and creating fabric panels for the backs of shelves to bring in color, organizing and figuring out how to display inventory, designing new signage, etc. It's been a wacky, wacky ride. The exhibit opens on Saturday, so I need to have everything done by Friday afternoon.
And on top of all that, I finally got Jack on the ice with skating lessons and I finally got around to getting a mammogram (results ok!).
For example, at the moment I'm writing this at the Springville High School library circulation desk, where I have been substituting for the last few days. Oops, hang on. I have to go help a student find books about ancient Roman baths.
I'm back!
Besides substituting at the high school several times this month, I've been busy at Jack's school helping out in the classroom, writing the PTA newsletter and creating door decorations for teacher appreciation week.
I've been busy at the Springville City Library as a newly appointed member of the library board, which will be a big adventure. The first hour of my first board meeting was pretty intense as we listened to a couple contest several books in the young adult section. First amendment issues right out of the gate!
I've been busy helping out with publicity for the 42nd Annual Art Ball, which is held every year at the Springville Museum of Art to help celebrate the opening of the Spring Salon exhibit, a juried show for contemporary Utah artists. The Art Ball will be held on May 3. Light buffet and big band dancing. Contact me if you want to buy tickets (I think I might have a quota to sell).
I've also been getting back to pulling together the art exhibit I'm working on as a guest curator for the museum--original illustrations from children's books. I met with the Statewide Art Partnership committee to talk about the exhibit and get their creative juices flowing with ideas about how to get schools involved. Their enthusiasm was very encouraging. The exhibit is scheduled from mid-September to the end of December.
I've also been at the museum nearly every day for the past two weeks working on transforming the store for the opening of the Wayne Thiebaud exhibit. I've been painting walls and creating fabric panels for the backs of shelves to bring in color, organizing and figuring out how to display inventory, designing new signage, etc. It's been a wacky, wacky ride. The exhibit opens on Saturday, so I need to have everything done by Friday afternoon.
And on top of all that, I finally got Jack on the ice with skating lessons and I finally got around to getting a mammogram (results ok!).
Sunday, March 02, 2008
The Speaker of the House
And since I've been feeling patriotic lately, here's Jack practicing his part for the third grade patriotic program at school. He recited the first lines of the Gettysburg Address in front of the entire 700 member student body and did a bang up job!
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Leap Year at the DMV
I wasn't too worried. They've got a great system at the DMV in Provo. I had a nice conversation with the woman sitting next to me while I waited for them to call my number. It took less than 15 minutes even though the place was packed with people.
The DMV is a fabulous place to people watch--it draws in a cross section of the entire community. I heard at least three languages besides English.
Driving our Jeep in wide open spaces. Efficient government bureaucracy. Being surrounded by people from all over the world. This is the America I revel in.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Winter Fun
Every day there are dozens of things I think I'll blog about. But then I never seem to get down to it. So here are a few pictures of Jack enjoying the snow this winter to keep up the appearance of blogging.
Jack, Georgia and Gracie on a fabulous new sledding hill at Jolley's Ranch up Hobble Creek Canyon.

Jolley's Ranch also has great trails for cross country skiing so Jack will get lots of practice with the skis Gramps gave him for Christmas.

Coming home to a cozy warm house at the end of the day.
Jack, Georgia and Gracie on a fabulous new sledding hill at Jolley's Ranch up Hobble Creek Canyon.
Jolley's Ranch also has great trails for cross country skiing so Jack will get lots of practice with the skis Gramps gave him for Christmas.
Coming home to a cozy warm house at the end of the day.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Who Should You Vote For?
Went online to this site and confirmed my voting instinct. See my results after answering a series of questions below.
I do want to say for the record that I believe Mitt Romney is a good person. I just don't agree with him on many issues. On a gut level, if I had to choose between Mitt Romney and John McCain, I'd go against the results below and vote for Romney. McCain's views on national security, which seem to come from a place very deep inside him, make me a little nervous, and I think Romney would be more capable of turning the economy around.
I can't remember where I heard this, but the other day some pundit defined Democrats as people who want "to fall in love" with a candidate and Republicans as people who want "to fall in line" with a candidate. I'm registered as unaffiliated, but am coming to the realization that I may actually be a Democrat. However, I really don't like fitting into a box, so I think I'm going to remain unaffiliated.
I am happy to admit that I have fallen for the aura of Obama. Yes, I have been swept up in the emotion of his rhetoric and his ability to inspire. But I wouldn't have fallen if I didn't also think that he has skills and plenty of substance as well.
Who should you vote for? (my results)
I do want to say for the record that I believe Mitt Romney is a good person. I just don't agree with him on many issues. On a gut level, if I had to choose between Mitt Romney and John McCain, I'd go against the results below and vote for Romney. McCain's views on national security, which seem to come from a place very deep inside him, make me a little nervous, and I think Romney would be more capable of turning the economy around.
I can't remember where I heard this, but the other day some pundit defined Democrats as people who want "to fall in love" with a candidate and Republicans as people who want "to fall in line" with a candidate. I'm registered as unaffiliated, but am coming to the realization that I may actually be a Democrat. However, I really don't like fitting into a box, so I think I'm going to remain unaffiliated.
I am happy to admit that I have fallen for the aura of Obama. Yes, I have been swept up in the emotion of his rhetoric and his ability to inspire. But I wouldn't have fallen if I didn't also think that he has skills and plenty of substance as well.
Who should you vote for? (my results)
| Barack Obama | 66 | |||
| Mike Gravel | 57 | |||
| Hillary Clinton | 36 | |||
| Ron Paul | -24 | |||
| John McCain | -24 | |||
| Mitt Romney | -63 | |||
| Mike Huckabee | -84 |
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Two and a Half Hours
Wow. A presidential primary with the chance to vote for a woman, an African-American or a Mormon. How cool is that?
I didn't choose my candidate because she was a woman, or he was an African-American, or he was a Mormon. I chose my candidate because I believe he is the best person for the job.
So I stood in line for two and a half long, long hours, asked for a Democratic ballot, and cast a vote for president that will actually make a difference here in Utah for once.
I haven't figured out why youtube won't accept my login, so I'll send you to this link for a video that captures the emotion of this vote for me today.
I didn't choose my candidate because she was a woman, or he was an African-American, or he was a Mormon. I chose my candidate because I believe he is the best person for the job.
So I stood in line for two and a half long, long hours, asked for a Democratic ballot, and cast a vote for president that will actually make a difference here in Utah for once.
I haven't figured out why youtube won't accept my login, so I'll send you to this link for a video that captures the emotion of this vote for me today.
Monday, February 04, 2008
1963
I'm not sure why I seem to be obsessed with my birth (see here and here), but two stories I've been following in the news are linked to 1963, the year I was born.
The events unfolding in Kenya have been of personal concern to me because my brother has made his home in Nairobi. I've been following the news there mostly through BBC news. I learned today that Kenya gained independence from Britain in 1963.
Also of personal concern, but closer to home, we've been waiting for an announcement about the new presidency of the LDS church. President Hinckley, who led the church since 1995, passed away last week. Today Thomas S. Monson was announced as the new president. President Monson was originally called to serve as an apostle in the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles in 1963.
On a lighter note, I was browsing Wikipedia for other events that occurred in 1963 and discovered that 1963 was the year Tab, often my soft drink of choice, was introduced. According to Wikipedia, it seems I am a member of a cult after all (see halfway through the fourth paragraph).
The events unfolding in Kenya have been of personal concern to me because my brother has made his home in Nairobi. I've been following the news there mostly through BBC news. I learned today that Kenya gained independence from Britain in 1963.
Also of personal concern, but closer to home, we've been waiting for an announcement about the new presidency of the LDS church. President Hinckley, who led the church since 1995, passed away last week. Today Thomas S. Monson was announced as the new president. President Monson was originally called to serve as an apostle in the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles in 1963.
On a lighter note, I was browsing Wikipedia for other events that occurred in 1963 and discovered that 1963 was the year Tab, often my soft drink of choice, was introduced. According to Wikipedia, it seems I am a member of a cult after all (see halfway through the fourth paragraph).
Saturday, February 02, 2008
713 Revisited
I came across our birth certificates while sorting through some papers today. Considering this post, it was a bit startling to see that I weighed 7 pounds 13 ounces when I was born.
Friday, February 01, 2008
I Like Hillary
It's true. It's sure (as heck) not a popular opinion here in Utah, but I like Hillary Clinton. I think she has a good mind and a good heart. She reminds me of some of the strong, intelligent women I've known and admired through the years, especially growing up back east. I think it would be interesting to hang out with her.
When her autobiography came out a few years ago, we carried it in our bookstore and at least half a dozen times some offended customer would turn the books around so people couldn't see the cover. A few months ago I was at a book club meeting and someone called Hillary ugly. I was genuinely surprised at how many people in the group nodded their heads in agreement. Ugly? Really?
I can understand having a visceral reaction against someone. I fight that every time I hear President Bush speak (and am pleased to report that I have tried to be mature about putting my feelings aside to really listen to what he's saying, and I do actually agree with him sometimes).
I can understand why people don't agree with Hillary on the issues. I can understand why people don't want her to be elected because of all the Clinton baggage. I can even understand why people find Hillary a bit offputting.
But I just can't relate to the visceral hate people feel toward her. Because I like her.
That said, I'm going to vote for Obama on Tuesday. I think it is very significant that he didn't support the invasion of Iraq. I think he is our best hope for moving forward together and finding our way as a nation in this new world of ours.
P.S. Though I'm not voting for him, it sure ticks me off that the media is basically writing off Mitt Romney (especially when the economy is such a critical issue). If all delegate votes counted regardless of states, Romney would be actually be the "clear" front runner. Also, I'm offended on Wyoming's behalf that their primary results were totally marginalized. No wonder people in this part of the country are suspicious of the eastern establishment. What a truly bizarre system we have!
When her autobiography came out a few years ago, we carried it in our bookstore and at least half a dozen times some offended customer would turn the books around so people couldn't see the cover. A few months ago I was at a book club meeting and someone called Hillary ugly. I was genuinely surprised at how many people in the group nodded their heads in agreement. Ugly? Really?
I can understand having a visceral reaction against someone. I fight that every time I hear President Bush speak (and am pleased to report that I have tried to be mature about putting my feelings aside to really listen to what he's saying, and I do actually agree with him sometimes).
I can understand why people don't agree with Hillary on the issues. I can understand why people don't want her to be elected because of all the Clinton baggage. I can even understand why people find Hillary a bit offputting.
But I just can't relate to the visceral hate people feel toward her. Because I like her.
That said, I'm going to vote for Obama on Tuesday. I think it is very significant that he didn't support the invasion of Iraq. I think he is our best hope for moving forward together and finding our way as a nation in this new world of ours.
P.S. Though I'm not voting for him, it sure ticks me off that the media is basically writing off Mitt Romney (especially when the economy is such a critical issue). If all delegate votes counted regardless of states, Romney would be actually be the "clear" front runner. Also, I'm offended on Wyoming's behalf that their primary results were totally marginalized. No wonder people in this part of the country are suspicious of the eastern establishment. What a truly bizarre system we have!
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