Made Up

Jack's friend Gracie sent me these old pictures today. I remember the day Jack came home from her house covered in makeup. He thought it was funny until we had to scrub his face!

Does anyone else miss the old versions of their kids as much as I do?

Rabble Rousers

I just came home from visiting with a 90-year-old neighbor who is determined to live in her own house as long as she can. Tuesday is my night to take off her pressure stockings, one of the few things she can't manage on her own. Mostly, it's a good excuse to hear her stories. She grew up the daughter of the couple who owned the local pool hall and knew everyone in town.

Another neighbor had taken her to spend the afternoon in the Springville High School gym watching the girls' basketball team play. She gushed and gushed about how much fun she had, how many friends she saw, and then reminisced about her years at Springville High.

She had played clarinet in the band, but was tapped to twirl the baton by a new drum major, fresh in from California. The drum major dressed the twirlers in short pleated skirts and cowboy boots, creating quite a stir up and down the Wasatch Front.

She also told me about her late husband who had played the trumpet in school and then well into his adult years, traveling around with dance bands. Sometimes he'd play in Carbon County, through the canyons southeast of Springville. She said it was against the law for bands to play and people to dance on Sundays in Utah then. That meant things were supposed to shut down at midnight on Saturday. But Carbon County, she said, made up their own laws, and people there danced into the wee hours.

I love our neighborhood.

My Wish Today

I wish that everyone who has fought so hard to undermine the implementation of the ACA's private health insurance exchanges could be in the room with me when an inmate at the jail asks about how to sign up. Usually they are dealing with some pre-existing physical condition like diabetes or, more often, an ongoing mental health issue. I pull up the website and start to demystify Utah's marketplace and the options they have now that individuals are part of a bigger risk pool. I watch them become more hopeful as they realize a piece of their intractable puzzle could be within reach.

That is all.

Just Like Tonight

Tonight, I went to Facebook to ask my friends for suggestions on something to write about in this post. All of the topics swirling in my head are complicated and serious, and I don't have the mental energy to think them through right now.

One of my friends suggested writing about the best part of owning an independent bookstore.

As you can imagine, it's impossible to come up with one best part. Something that I especially loved, though, was the stream of people who came in and the conversations we had. I picked up all sorts of news and information and ideas, and often passed them along to other customers.

I went through some serious withdrawal after we closed up. I teetered on the edge of depression for a long time, struggling to find my balance. Feeling so disconnected was one of the challenges I faced.

Something that helped save me? Totally not kidding: Facebook. My friends there are my virtual stream of people full of new and information and ideas that I pick up and often pass on.

Just like tonight.

Carpe Diem, Part Two

I stayed up late last night watching Dead Poets Society to the end. I'm still not sure what moved my friend to tears--there are many possibilities--but I do know what was especially moving to me, watching it at this point in my life.

(Spoiler alert.) A student at an elite private school tragically ends his own life. After an inquiry that doesn't uncover the truth, some of his classmates are told to sign a document that puts the blame on their beloved poetry teacher or risk expulsion. They sign it. Then in the last scene, the teacher comes to the classroom on last time to collect his things, and one of the students, who is painfully shy, stands up to defend him, defying the headmaster, bravely proclaiming the truth as he saw it.

Synchronistically, I decided to read the full text of Martin Luther King, Jr.'s "Letter from Birmingham Jail" today and came across these passages:

"I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's greatest stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Councilor or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate who is more devoted to "order" than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice . . . I had hoped that the white moderate would understand that the present tension in the South is a necessary phase of the transition from an obnoxious negative peace, in which the Negro passively accepted his unjust plight, to a substantive and positive peace, in which all men will respect the dignity and worth of human personality . . . We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the good people."

Sometimes I use my voice in the face of injustice, but I fear it is only when the risk seems minimal or nonexistent. I need to use it more often. Carpe diem.

Carpe Diem

Curled up under a blanket watching Dead Poets Society tonight. I've only seen it once before, when I was in my 20s. I went with a friend who cried as he watched it, and not at the points that made sense to me to cry. He never said a word about it afterward, and I didn't know him well enough to ask.

I have no idea why he cried. Now that I'm re-watching it, older and wiser, maybe I'll understand something new. 

And now back to the show . . .

Inextricably Linked

I'm teaching in the Sparks Automotive building this semester at UVU. The school tucks required English classes into pretty much every corner of campus because they have to offer so many sections.

This is my path from the parking lot to the building. On the left, I pass by the entrance bays to the automotive shop where students work on diesel engines and auto body repair. On the right, I pass by campus security and all of its associated vehicles, including one ominous looking tactical incident response truck.

It's awesome that the trades and the humanities are inextricably linked in this space. Because they are in the real world, too. More than people realize, I think.

Out to Lunch

It's very nice to go out to lunch with friends. I do it sometimes. I should do it more often.

Seeing Red

I could share a photo of the bloody knee I got when I stumbled down some uneven cement steps in the dark tonight. But what arrived in the mail today for Jack (bought with Christmas money after months and months of wishing), is way more fun to look at.

We've got a Dr. Who fan on our hands, my friends.

Themes

For my freshman composition classes at Utah Valley University:

I would not give a fig for the simplicity on this side of complexity, but I would give my life for the simplicity on the other side of complexity. - Oliver Wendell Holmes, Jr.

For my transition skills classes at the county jail:

The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any. - Alice Walker

Una necesidad no sólo una falta

My sister just recently moved to Coyoacan, Mexico, where my grandmother lived as a child. When I was a junior in high school, my parents, my grandmother, and my aunt Mary went to Mexico. Dad recently dug up some of his slides of our trip to send to my sister.

Here we are in Coyoacan (left to right: Mom, Grandma Jan, Aunt Mary and me). I believe this may be the place my great grandparents taught school.

I need to buy a plane ticket and go visit my sister.

Better Him Than Me

Of his own volition, Jack went camping up the canyon with the scouts last night. Roger and I went out to dinner and a movie with a friend. After the show, we drove up the canyon to see what the thermometer in the car said. At 10:00 p.m. it was in the low 20s and dropping. We drove home and bundled under warm blankets for the night.

Sorry, Jack. Glad it was you and not me up there on the cold, hard ground in a tent full of teenage boys.

Bright Lines

When I arrived at work this morning, I learned about a tragic family murder/suicide involving a former colleague with the sheriff's department. I didn't know him. At most, I crossed paths with him a few times.

Last night, our presenter at the library spoke about the shift in early detective fiction from an assumption that crime is rooted in societal ills to a depiction of criminals being inherently evil. Did the shift result from our wanting to believe that we are always fully capable of rising above our circumstances? That we are not capable of committing a heinous act, only others are?

I call false choice. Isn't it usually some combination of the two? If we put all the blame on individuals, we risk losing our capacity to empathize. If we put all the blame on society, we risk becoming disempowered as individuals.

When a case like this happens--when a law enforcement officer who is held in high esteem by his peers becomes a most heinous law breaker--what do we make of it? Do we draw a bright line and say we are not him? He likely had drawn that very line for himself when he worked with inmates at the jail. And yet, in the blink of an eye, he crossed it.

Raising the Bar

Tonight at the ongoing "So You Want To Read" series at our local library, we hosted a BYU visiting lecturer who talked about the genesis and progression of classic detective fiction. She did an excellent job, but one of her friends set a new standard for the series. She made party favor "Evidence Bags" to hand out, stamped--not even ironically--with a detective's mustache.

Inside the bags:

• A little red notebook with a fortune cookie and a tag that reads "Red - In honor of the Chinese New Year - Brings good luck - Thus, it is elementary a great detective elude the misfortune of bad luck."
• A couple of gumballs with a tag that reads "What kind of gumshoe are you anyway?"
• A little bag full of Swedish fish with a tag that reads "This is fishy!"
• A bag with black and white candy with a tag that reads "It's not always black and white."
• A little bag full of cashews with a tag that reads "Our thief may be crazy! You know . . . nuts!"

Bless the people who are not Pinterest impaired!

Fractured

Just before Christmas on an icy walk home from school, Jack slipped and landed on the corner of his saxophone case. His rib hurt. We told him to keep us posted, but even if it was broken he'd just have to wait it out. The last few days it started to hurt a bit more so I took him to the doctor today. Fractured. And, of course, nothing to do but wait. At least there's an official record now.

In the Morning

Since Winter Solstice the days are getting longer, but the sun still isn't up until after I take Jack to school. This is what we see in the mornings these days: the eastern tip of the highest peak in our view bathed in light, all the rest in the shadow of the mountains.

Tell Us About Yourself

I spent the entire day on a panel interviewing people for a job opening in our community. It's amazing how much stamina that takes. Phew!

Anyway, we started out each interview with the classic open-ended "Tell us about yourself" to see what kinds of things applicants focused on when left to their own devices.

A few years ago when I was putting together the transition skills course I teach at the jail, I went to my then 95-year-old neighbor for some advice. She had spent her entire working life in human resources, and one of her main tasks was to conduct job interviews.

I asked her, "How did people typically blow their interviews with you?"

Without hesitation, she replied, "I hated rambling. On and on and on. Ugh. If I asked people to tell me about themselves and 45 minutes later they were still talking, they didn't have a chance in hell of getting hired."

I can see that.

A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood

This picture that I posted on Facebook a few years ago just resurfaced today when one of Jack's friends found it and tagged it. The neighborhood kids are taking a break from a water balloon fight on a summer day.

When Roger and I got married, I told him that I wanted to live in a house in a neighborhood so that our kids would have days like this. I had missed that growing up on Main Street, not being able to ride my bike with the heavy traffic until I was older and always having to depend on someone to get a ride to a friend's house.

It's worked out just the way I hoped.

Discoveries

What I discovered on the way to work: The most awesome life size window displays at a plumbing supply store on frontage road.

What I discovered at work: What a "lumper" is. I was meeting with an inmate and showing him the online job search feature on the Workforce Services website. One of the job listings was for a lumper. I said, "I've got to click on that one to find out what it is." He said, "Oh, it's a mover. Loads and unloads trucks. I know because I had that job once."

Every day, something new. It's one of my favorite things about life.

A Plug

The Springville Library presents an

ongoing series for adventurous readers

So You Want to Read
Classic Detective Fiction

Thursday, 16 January 2014, 7-8 pm

with BYU’s Liz Christianson

So You Want to Read
Nobel Prize Winner Alice Munro

Thursday, 20 February 2014, 7-8 pm

with BYU’s Bruce Jorgensen

So You Want to Read 

(Not Your Paul Bunyan) Folklore

Thursday, 20 March 2014, 7-8 pm

with UVU’s Ronda Walker Weaver

So You Want to Read Hemingway

Thursday, 17 April 2014, 7-8 pm

with UVU’s Mark Pepper

Each month we explore
genres, authors or specific works
you may be thinking about diving into.

Let us convince you to go for it!